THIRD DECLARATION

Children, lookit: there's been a lot of confusion about my old dictum "YOU = A COMPLEX REACTION TO SELF-OBSESSION." I still think it's a crackerjack definition & mebbe together we can get a little clarity on the subject. (Get it? "Subject"? Nevermind.)

First off we should have no trouble agreeing that you are a Narcissistic maniac. What's that? Not you? You make conscious efforts to overcome the manifestations of self-obession? WELL AREN'T YOU SPECIAL! (See what I mean?)

I'm not talking about the specific symptoms of a Narcisstic Personality that allow it be diaGNOSTICally distinguished from other screw-ups. I'm talking about the simple fact of PRIMAL NARCISSISM. A basic, pre-rational expectation that the SELF should conflate with GLORIOUS EXPANSIVE FEELINGS.

"If ego is the seat of narcissism and narcissism does not exist from the start of life, what must happen for it to emerge?" - Sigmund Freud.

Now, I love ol' CancerJaw McFreud but on this subject he's a gibbering shoggoth who hasn't noticed that his hands are so far up his ass that he's got a mouthful of ten fingers.!

1. Ego is not the seat of narcissism.
2. Narcissism exists from the start of life.

There. That takes care of that malarkey. All organisms come with this built in. Maybe yours got a load of horseshit dumped on it. Maybe you learned to be saintly, or at least civilized -- but all that starts with Narcisissim and even perpetuates Narcissism by means of the subtle attempt to flatter oneself by living up to your Ego Ideal.

How do you suppose the basic self-validating, self-affirming, endlessly-reaching, expansion-attempting LIFE ENERGY (See: "My Discovery of the Orgone Energy" by Buff Striding) feels when it finds itself confined into a pulsating organism-sack with self-reflective capabilities?

No - don't think. I'll tell you how you it feels. It feels -- simultaneously -- that it is an immortal, universal, ever-expanding glory AND that it is a limited, contained, centralized entity. The fusion of these creates Primal Narcissism. A condition of self-concern, self-obsession and pre-conceptual certainty that total pleasure is your own ultimate destiny. What else could possibly be appropriate for one so wonderful as you?

The psychological events of childhood do not create narcissism -- they limit it & render it covert, half-conscious. Life shatters and confounds our narcissism. The need to live semi-functionally with others requires a modulation of our core energy. We need to perform and then to believe in equality and the rights of others. But what of the original, irrational feeling? Where is it? What is it up do? How much influence does it weild in our otherwise sane impulses?

Primal Narcissism is door -- it can be either open or shut. When shut it is the ego-devil of all our deeds. When open it is the river that leads back to the sea of primal energy which washes the face of our Holy God of Hyperspace.

S/He has empowered Me to be the vessel of your liberation, salvation, emancipation. You cannot get at your self-obsession. Everything about you is an add-on, a reaction, a complexification of that original condition. As soon as you turn inwards, you are ACTING FROM IT -- not learning about it. Instead you must accept the impossible disconnect of surrender, and allow the core of your narcissism to be externalized. That's my job.

Let me have it the face: I, BUFF STRIDING, AM THE GREATEST THING IMAGINABLE.

Remember, you aren't your "I"... I am.